So like, me and my sister were talking today and just joking around and shit, and some how we got on the topic of me being a little snobby. Now, I know I can be, but its never intentional. Well, as we were talking I naturally defended myself and came to a realization. Im such and uppity asshole all the time, because if how much I hate myself. Like, I never evaluated how I am, and patti really made me think, and it makes sense. I have such a low view of myself, that i think if I get other people to think I view myself better than I do than people will think Im just some snobby ass and leave me alone. I don’t like talking about my feelings, and when I act better than someone, no one will question why im so quiet or why I wear long sleves a lot. Its my mask.